Day 1 VLOG

my music and advisory class

day turned into darkness

Dec. 16, 2011 (Friday)

It was just another ordinary, getting busy with students' Christmas party and for the Education week presentation. Everyone in school were so hyped for the day's activities without knowing that something big and tragic is about to come. The day was gloomy and cold winds touched my skin. I arrived school early and was quite uneasy already. I felt silence and somewhat something's up. I was busy during the day because of stuff, specifically documents to prepare for. In spite of a busy day, I see smiles and happy faces from the people around me. It was a bit uncomfortable.

Co-teachers and I were getting ready for the upcoming presentation late in the afternoon. We were busy doing make-up and taking pictures before the program starts. It started to rain. We were not expecting the rain to pour down hard.

After a few minutes, we went off to the venue for the program. I felt tensed and even my co-performers were tense on what is going to happen during presentation. We gave our best on our performance even if our music was stopped. It was getting more tense and emotions indescribable. It was still raining but the wind was kinda hitting hard on our umbrellas. After the presentation, my friend and I went ahead to eat dinner.

After having dinner, i went off to go home. It took me a while to find my ride. It was getting more tense and mixed emotions. I arrived home then immediately got dressed for sleep because i just had a very tiring day.


Dec. 17, 2011
around 1-3am

I was uneasy sleeping, awakened by the cry of Johann and the rain outside. I never expected that it was already a typhoon. I still went to sleep, too tired to stand up.

Upon waking up in the morning, i then found out that it was a very tragic morning. disappointing part is that my phone was out and i didn't hear from people outside. When Johann and I went off to the mall, i saw along the streets the mess that the typhoon caused. It was not a normal flood. It was more like a tidal wave that washed off everything on land and even the people in nearby rivers and streams.




..up to this moment, i still can't believe what just happened. Was it for real? all the while i thought it was just a nightmare. How i wish it was all just a dream, a nightmare, a day turned into darkness...

I'm never fallin' in love again

I'm so out of my mind

On the day you left me behind

Leaving me with all the memories

We've shared through the days and years

Words unsaid, tears shed

Yet you still went on without any regret

Do you even know how much you've hurt me

On the day you left, leaving my heart to bleed

We were on the right track

Dreams and plan waiting, so easy for you to break it

Now, I'm giving my heart a break

I'm never fallin' in love again

That's what i told myself

Don't wanna feel the pain you gave me

And the hurt that crushed me

I am moving on, without you by my side

I'm trying to leave our past behind

Now I'm holding on to a dream

I'm looking forward to achieve

No matter how hard you try to tear me down

I'm coming back up staying strong

words by Ms. Jane Paglinawan

Sept. 19, 2011

(during slumber)

Why they call it falling...

Words are not enough

To say what i'm feelin'

On the first day I met you

I told you not to fall in love

Oh, how the days go by

I still can't get you off my chest

Time gave my heart a break

From the moment we met

Don't wanna feel the hurt again

But your name keeps on ringin' in my brain

Is this why they call it falling?

One moment of introduction keeps on repeating

One day at a time of anybody's life

No matter how long, no matter how far

Even two different worlds apart

When it hits you, it hits you hard

Hearts pounding and beating fast

Every time I recall that very day to last

Being alone on my journey, i stood firm and strong

Between Life and love, I surpassed it all

But now you're gone

Leaving me behind with tears falling down from my eyes

Do you really have to make me feel like this

Left me hangin' in a bliss

My LIFE's Checklist

I found a blog on the net while scanning about Life and Music. And i quote these lines, some sort of a checklist, and i'm actually inspired by it.

Here are the lines I'm talking about:

1. Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. (i'm on it...)

2. Take chances. (i am..just that im not there yet..)

3. Tell the truth. (i am, i did...)

4. Date someone totally wrong for you.(well im counting them..)

5. Say no. (hmmm, i guess...)

6. Spend all your cash. (waaaahh!!! always!!...)

7. Fall in love. (..not for now)

8. Get to know someone random. (dats a good idea!..)

9. Be random. (i always am...i guess...)

10. Say I Love You. (..not as of the moment...)

11. Sing out loud. (well of course, im a singer...)

12. Laugh at a stupid joke. (hahhaha!..)

13. Cry. (most of the time..)

14. Get revenge. (gosh! not on my vocabulary...)

15. Apologize. (i do...)

16. Tell someone how much they mean to you. (often...but no one believes it..)

17. Tell the asshole what you feel. (i'm about to...)

18. Let someone know what they're missing. (not my character..)

19. Laugh till your stomach hurts. (harharhar!!!...)

20. LIVE LIFE! (i am and always will..)

*If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem---it's a reality..

>this'll be my checklist from now on..I hope you do too...

Depression...for me...

Depression is a dangerous state of mind to be going through. It’s a state of mind that makes you be filled with sadness. If you are really depressed, you wouldn’t be able to do anything. You’ll just be lying on your bed or couch while you’re mind is attacking you like a weak soldier. There are more than a million things going on in life everyday. Don’t let some double digits of problems affect you. Here are a few ways to recover from depression.

1. Go To Therapy Session

Therapy is more like a confession time. You’re in a room by yourself with one person. Everything you say is not going to leave the room. So you enter that room, let everything out. Don’t hold anything back. And the good thing about it is that someone is there to guide you through it.

2. Exercise Daily or Weekly

Consider exercise a way to remove your anger or sadness. Aim all of your emotions towards equipment like a punching bag. If you are ever in a position where you want to punch someone in the face, grab some boxing gloves and go at it. Picture someone on the bag, and don’t hold yourself back.

3. Write About It In A Journal

The best thing to do is not hold all of your emotions inside. If you have something to get off your chest, write all your feelings down in your journal. Once you start writing, you’ll begin to let everything out. If you’re angry, don’t stop writing and let it all out. Some people tend to stop writing and then find another way to let their anger. That isn’t the write choice. Let everything out until you feel like you’ve everything down.

If you’re sad, sometimes you’ll stop writing. You feel like you don’t want to go deep. The tears are pouring down like a waterfall. You want it all to stop. So the best decision is stop writing and lay on the bed. It’s not the right choice. Once the tears start coming, don’t stop. Let it all out. Once you finish writing that last word, you will feel a whole lot better.

There are so many things to do in life. Don’t let depression stop you from reaching your goal. In America, when people feel down, they get right back up, but even stronger.